A fter spending some time with God, I realized that my life was just too busy.
I placed faith in idols like productivity and success instead of Him. I became stressed, exhausted, miserable, and aimless.
But I was able to reset myself when I started to do what God asked. I set aside time to talk with Him and study the Word, soon to feel my anxiety and worries dissipate.
My attitude was positive, my words were kind, and my priorities focused on what’s important: family and God. I felt rested and ready for whatever lay ahead, good or bad.
Running In Circles
I guess you could say that I felt pretty awesome about launching my blog to the world. But I knew that I was going to be tested by God again- to see if I would misplace my faith and focus.
So before launching, I went to battle against temptation… I prayed. I asked God to keep me fixated on Him, always placing Him first before the duties of running a business and household.
You know what happened? One day after my business went live online, my obsessive-compulsive personality and perfectionism kicked in again.
My thoughts were drowning in networking, researching, writing, laundry, making meals, budgeting, appointments, cleaning, etc. Within a week, I realized that I had pushed God to the back of these tasks just as before.
And I knew this because I wasn’t growing, spiritually. I started to feel stagnant and aimless; my body and mind were running in circles with activities and plans.
Realizing The Race
So what’s the answer to my recurring problem? Realizing that life is a long distance race aimed toward one goal: Jesus.
Therefore, since we have so great a cloud of witnesses surrounding us, let us also lay aside every encumbrance and the sin which so easily entangles us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us… (Hebrews 12:1)
I had been blessed with the opportunity to partake in three half-marathons in my twenties. They were endurance races, spending over two hours to run each 13.1 miles of road.
The weaker my body became, the more my thoughts drifted toward my hurting joints, chaffed skin, and labored breathing. It was more than just training my body to endure what I was doing, but also my mind.
The same happens when the enemy starts to intervene in our everyday lives. We start focusing on unfinished tasks, heavy burdens, and worrying whether or not our families are taken care of.
We get discouraged, being reminded of mistakes that we’ve made. So then we decide to take matters into our own hands, trying to prove those thoughts false.
Fixing Our Eyes
We kick into our second wind, managing to knock out a few more miles. But eventually those thoughts, worries, and burdens start to weigh heavily upon us. Now what?
…fixing our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of faith, who for the joy set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. (Hebrews 12:2)
When we learn to train our eyes on Jesus, we can endure our race. By placing all of our efforts into establishing a solid relationship with Him, we are able to strengthen our minds against the enemy’s schemes.
Since I am in a stronger relationship with God than in previous years, I do notice when my concentration begins to shift again. I would sleep, eat, and love poorly.
I became miserable trying to be productive in my day and it would show in my negative and tense attitude. Essentially, I began to notice when there was no faith displayed by my works.
Aiming For Christ
Therefore I run in such a way, as not without aim; I box in such a way, as not beating the air; but I discipline my body and make it my slave, so that, after I have preached to others, I myself will not be disqualified. (1 Corinthians 9:26-27)
Ever train for an intense physical event? It took three months of training six days a week for those half-marathons.
I spent hours dedicated to running, cross-training, stretching, eating right, and so on. I remember those early morning hours when everyone was still asleep, and I dreaded the long and silent road ahead of me.
And I can still feel those grueling hills, swollen joints, and cramping muscles. But the more I focused on the end result of accomplishment, the more I could endure the journey.
Having Faith With Works
Our race has already begun. God knows if we are truly focused on and have faith in Him.
He knows if we are flailing our limbs without aim, undisciplined in our bodies and minds by what we put into them. He also knows if we are focusing on other gods like money, control, sex, drugs, productivity, etc.
Are you overloading your day in order to please everyone? Could you be neglecting your family because of work demands and stress?
If you have lost your aim, the answer is to focus it back on Jesus. Set aside time to remember why you wanted to follow Him in the first place and then use that to keep your eyes trained upon Him.
He will provide the right comfort, peace, rest, and joy for you to endure your race. And you will one day be able to cross that finish line and say with great accomplishment, “It is finished!”
Post Question: If you recognize that you have become aimless, what is one thing you could do differently for God? Comment below!